i am thinking if i should get a job. well, there's nothing wrong with me working even on part-time. but my schedule especially on school days bothers me. especially now there would be more school works to meet. and there is that RLE/duty. i don't think i can managed my time well if i study and work at the same time. thinking of what happened in my freshman year is already overwhelming, then how about the years to come?

if i am thinking if i should work, the remedy to my problem in study-work conflict is that i would be an irregular student. that is, i would not take some subjects so my hours in work and study would be balanced. the problem with that is: my expected time of graduation would be delayed.

i don't think i can study and work at the same time because my course would not allow it. as far as how i foresee it, it is impossible for me to be a working-student if i am a student nurse. this is what i hate in nursing. time devotion is very important. if only nursing is as free as other courses.

honestly, i am thinking of getting a job also because of my younger sister. i am being unfair to her. i am studying in manila. in a well-known university, while she would be stuck here in laguna, mainly because of me. she was assigned to call up my aunt so that she could be her (my aunt's) scholar. i feel guilty every time she asks "bakit si ate hindi ginawa un?" (how come 'ate' didn't need to do it?) yeah, i enrolled in my first year without thinking about those things.

maybe i should take this easter triduum as my time to think, as well as work things out.