Once a pro-writer wannabe, but due to some certain circumstances, I became a full-time Nursing student.A part-time business woman who loves to cook, to read, and of course, to write.
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this is my Johari's first and third quadrant
Age 19 Birthday 08/26 Status In love
I love love. I love life.
MY EYES ADORED YOU
Wednesday, June 4, 2008 @ 11:40 PM
It's my dad's birthday today.
It's been so long since he had me in his arms.
Every year, when this day comes, I feel like I really miss him. I still have the fondest memories with my dad. According to my mom, among us three, I was his favorite. Maybe because when I was younger people always say that I look like my father. Father's pride, eh?
Earlier when I reminded my mother that it's Papa's birthday today, she said it's good that I remember things like this. Huwag lumimot sa pinanggalingan. I know my mom's life was not easy when my dad's still alive. However, mom said that if there's one thing she prided my father of, it was his love for us, especially for me. She told me that Pa's the one looking after us, feeding us, bathing us, and even do the laundry for us when she's at work. It made me think how great my father's love for us to think that he'd done menial chores when he's a police officer.
Often times, I think about how our life would be if my father's still alive. Maybe it's a whole lot different than this. My perception on things would have been different. Experiences would be different from the experience I had during the years. And the list of differences would go on and on and on...
One thing is for sure: God is ever wise and knows everything and has a great plan for all His creations. If El Supremo did not have that "event" on His plan, maybe I wouldn't have experienced great things life had brought me ever since. I f I have the chance to live my life again and choose the people who will stay forever by my side, I wouldn't do it. Why should I?
These things, whenever I think of them, always give me head ache. It's better for me to stop thinking on these things as even though I'll die thinking it through, I will not solve any of life's mysteries. Simply because that is the way it is. El Supremo, it is.
It's just that, happy birthday Papa. I hope wherever you are, you're happy. Please be our guardian and guide. I love you.
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I had just finished watching "You Got Me" and "My Big Love", both starred Toni Gonzaga and Sam Milby. I got inspired by the later. I LOVE MACKY! Anyway, the movie gave me a new but quite old idea of my would-be man: a good cook (better be chef) and quite "huggable". =))
However, this idea doesn't matter at this time: I'm too lazy for a roller coaster ride of emotions.
I fell in love with the theme song of You Got Me, My Eyes Adored You. I didn't like the movie that much, though I didn't say I hate it. So-so. Here's a version from the lead actor and actress.
"My eyes adored you, Though I never laid a hand on you My eyes adored you, Like a million miles away from me you couldn't see How I adored you: So close, so close and yet so far"
Good night. I got to do the laundry tomorrow. Again.